I am a mom of two and wife of 1, who lives in a messy world and tries to control it. This being impossible leads to many hours trying to find happiness and solace in my decisions. I deal daily with anxiety, stress, elation, OCD, depression, exhaustion, jubilation, guilt, and satisfaction. In an effort to live honestly I can say that it is only in the quiet hours of the night when the kids are in their beds and the new day hasn’t begun, that I feel calm. Through writing this blog and reading others, I have learned that I am not alone in this world. There are control freaks out there everywhere. Medicated and not. Mom’s who worry about their children every hour. Wives who wonder how to be better at it. And women who struggle with friendships and feelings and the goal of doing something that matters every day. I’ve been told that this is just what your 30s looks like, but I’m not sure. Either way, it’s an interesting journey. Thanks for coming along with me while I navigate.